004 Friday, 12 December 2014

Today I decided to rename this section from “Speaking to My Heavenly Father” to “Pondering Thoughts & Prayer”  I should try to come to this section as least twice a week to share something.  I do, like many others have many thoughts during the day, and things that I meditate on.  Like many others I struggle with set prayer times, yet I do try during the course of the day, to allow Jehovah to speak to my heart, and for me to speak to Him through my thoughts, whether it be when I am walking, driving, at the shopping centre, or sitting at my computer.

I have read many articles on prayer, read the scriptures on what Jesus and the Apostles taught and said, but trying to discipline myself, with set times, has led me many times to failure.  But my thoughts towards Jehovah is with Him throughout the day, when I wake up, and when I go to sleep, He is always there.

Yesterday, I was reading an article about “What is Jesus Christ Doing Now”. Even though I knew in the back of mind, that Jesus Christ is the mediator between Jehovah and I, sometimes that reality can get lost in our conscious, or stolen due our adversary, sowing seeds of doubts.  Before reading this article, I was not having a good day, some of this, was due to my own fault for jumping in and getting into a conversation, where maybe I should have just walked away and kept quiet. Sometimes one needs to be cautious to whom one speaks to, and to be more discerning, and when to say something and when one should keep quiet. Unfortunately, we have become a society of babblers who have a need to speak to be seen, and feel the need to have the last word.  Most people don’t listen to our words, most of us just want give out words.  Many of us, don’t meditate on words, (as long as they are the right words one meditates on), yet God does tell us to do just that.  The more we spend time on meditating on His words, the more we can be more discerning towards spiritual matters.

One of the things, I have got into habit of doing, just before going to sleep, is meditating on what God has shown me during the day, even if it’s just one verse.

Psa 1:2 LITV
(2) But his delight is only in the Law of Jehovah, and he meditates in His Law day and night.

Psa 63:6 LITV
(6) when I remember You upon my bed. I will meditate on You in the night watches.

One can take one verse, speak to Jehovah and say, what are you actually telling me here, what do I need to know from these words, and how do I need to apply it in my life.

Going back to me not have good day, I got angry, upset and my heart was in stubborn mode, I wanted to make a point, but I was not in good place, and being in that situation, I knew I would be of no help to anyone, and it would have ended up in a fleshly argument, instead of dealing with spiritual matters. It got to the stage, I deactivated my Facebook Account for a short time, as I felt compelled, I needed to calm down and evaluate the situation.

Sometimes we don’t see it ourselves, that we doing exactly to others or being double minded in what we say, saying and teaching others then making excuses for yourself when one is doing the same thing.  And when people do this to me, I feel the need to point this out, and that day, it resorted in attacking me in a carnal way, because they did not have the answer, they resorted to a carnal attack. But what I did, or what I should say, I felt I was being led to understand this disorder problem, this person had.  I sat and found myself listening to youtube videos on understanding this disorder.  I then felt, Jehovah working in my heart, I started to feel forgiveness for this person. My heart and mind was becoming peaceful again. These words came to me, “Father forgive them, as they don’t know what they are doing”.

And this brings me again to the article, which I read later in the evening “What is Jesus Christ Doing Now”

Hebrews 7:24-25
but because Jesus lives forever, he has a permanent priesthood. Therefore he is able to save completely those who come to God through him, because he always lives to intercede for them.

I thank Jesus Christ for interceding, I thank Jesus Christ for praying for me, on my behalf to Jehovah.  I thank Jesus Christ for giving me that peace.

Looking back on this now, I can see there was something that needed to be brought to my attention, there was something I need to learn about a disability, there was something that may have got lost in my conscious.

2 John 1:3 GNB
May God the Father and Jesus Christ, the Father’s Son, give us grace, mercy, and peace; may they be ours in truth and love.